Beijing AZN's Turf

It's been so long that i can't even remember the last time i wrote something here about my life. i guess it just has been a period where writing down life seemed unnecessary and useless to me. I figured the best way to overcome obstacles and problems in life is simply dealing with them head on. (No words can change the troubled circumstances and undesirable situation, but action will)Besides, blogging constantly takes time and sometimes facilitates my tendency to keep certain problems to myself and not deal with them. So, my attempt to be a person of action naturally led to my MIA in the blog world,a world that seemed to me was only as good as to provide a mental sanctuary for the people who are in need of self reflection and affirmation during bad times in their lives. Aside from those reasons, dealing with problems head on should still be the number one option to me, and to all others.

Ok, blog has some other benefits other than being a mental sanctuary. Whether is where you can keep a record of your happy memories, or where you can exchange life experience with others, living those experience and enjoying the good moments are the first step before anything. So, i think i have made my point that we should prioritize life as to putting other things before blogging.

今天是开学以来的第一次翘课，suddenly really want to feel the feeling of being remote from reality. 

                                      

最近感觉生活非常缺乏有意思的事， 做的不是为了学校就是找工作。我真的需要一些关怀。。whether friends or some others.

I hate to guts that myself being like this.. after all, who doesn't have to work hard for making their life better? Remember at the beginning of this quarter, i had a dream. It was a strong fire, a burning desire...but now it is wearing down....just a tiny little flicker. i need to rekindle that fire, the passion that i have almost lost.

                                              

Why wouldn't i believe that i will succeed and beco me someone? nobody is really in my way, it is my own mind most of the time that hindered my dream.

I must finish the history paper and graphics design hw today, and finish the accounting hw by tomorrow also turn in the digital cinema class assignment.

Come on, man. it's not that hard...stop being such a baby...be a believer of ur dream, don't be a doubter..   although love and encouragement are the source of my power, but sometimes it's up to me to lift myself up and get myself out of misery.

In fact, i just feel like i got totally caught up with all the school work and career-building thinking...things have to be done just come surging in one after another...didn't give me much time to think them through....i just discomposedly cope with whatever came first.. finally, i found myself out of aim.

I need to stride forward, get a move on with my current situation. i need to do things with 100%concentration, get a early start with any things need to be finished, getting more involved with activities in school and church. Clear my mind, do one thing at a time.. pace my tasks.  

Humble, doing rather than thinking, keeping up with my goals---will never easily give up.